“We will begin our
initial descent. Please
return your seats and
food trays to the
upright position and
turn off all electronic
devices.”
Buffy snapped out of her
reverie as the flight
attendant came on over
the intercom. She sat up
straight and looked to
the seat beside her,
where Dawn was rousing
from sleeping.
“Um,” she said groggily,
wiping a little bit of
drool from the corner of
her lips. “How long was
I asleep?”
“Just the past ten
minutes,” Buffy told
her.
“You didn’t sleep at
all?” she asked with
concern.
Buffy shook her head.
“No.”
Xander, Willow and
Kennedy sat two rows
behind them. Kennedy
wouldn’t speak to either
of them, feeling
betrayed like the others
did because they hadn’t
told her the truth about
Xander’s vision.
Everyone had trouble
sleeping on the flight
except for Xander, who
hadn’t slept much since
the night he’d been
awakened.
He didn’t want to be the
man who sees all
anymore, especially in
this capacity. But if
what he saw aided them
in fighting against
another apocalypse, then
he’d have to deal with
the
uncomfortable-to-reveal
information that was
handed to him. He just
didn’t want to start
freaking out on the
airplane. He preferred
to do that on the
ground.
The girls followed Dawn
into the ladies bathroom
once they arrived at
LAX. Dawn and Kennedy
were in charge of making
sure no one came in
while Willow performed a
locator spell, human
variety.
“OK, I got him,” said
Willow. “He’s still
within the city limits,
or the map limits, so
here’s hoping Illyria’s
still with him.”
“I thought you said this
woman’s name was Fred?”
Dawn queried. “Oh,
sorry,” she said as she
and Kennedy stopped a
woman from entering the
bathroom. “There’s a
really big spill in
here. Plus vomit.
Janitor’s on his way.”
The woman grunted in
annoyance and walked
away.
“It is...” Willow
replied, then her
certainty faltered. “I
think.”
“Where are they?” Buffy
asked, jumping straight
to business.
“Here, heading south.”
“Let’s go.”
* * * *
Angel remained in the
shadows of the alley as
he watched the city
officials take away
Gunn’s body.
“What is this, an axe?”
said one of the
examiners, lifting
Gunn’s axe off of the
ground.
“It looks like it’s made
out of a hubcap,” said
another, shaking his
head. “This town…”
“Wonder what happened to
whoever did this to
him?”
Angel’s eyes brimmed
with tears as he watched
the gurney carrying his
fallen comrade disappear
from view.
“Pity, isn’t it?” A
figure emerged from the
shadows behind him. “You
fight the good fight so
that life will get
better, yet all it does
is kill the ones you
love.”
“You having trouble
staying dead, Lilah?” he
asked menacingly. “I
could fix that.”
She grinned confidently.
“Don’t worry – still
dead. Just here for a
visit.”
“And here I was thinking
Wolfram & Hart sent you
to kill me.”
Lilah laughed. “Can’t
get anything past you,
can I? Well, maybe some
things.”
Angel turned to her and
fixed her with a stare.
“Wesley’s dead.”
Her confident façade
melted away and her eyes
turned downward. “I
know.”
“Does that even matter
to you?” he asked. “What
with all that hellfire
putting a spin on your
world views…”
“I’m glad.” Angel glared
at her. “Not because
he’s dead. I know he’s
in a better place,
Angel. He’s not where I
am.”
He sighed in
frustration. “What is it
they want you to do,
Lilah? Talk me to
death?”
Her grin returned. “I’m
not going to kill you,
Angel. Although that is
why I’m here.”
“The senior partners
want me dead. I survive
a horde of demons and
they send you to finish
the job?”
“They knew how I got
under your skin,” she
replied, walking closer
to him. “But here’s the
thing. If I kill you,
you get off easy. You
know I don’t like that.”
“What is that supposed
to mean?”
Lilah laughed wickedly
as she backed away.
“You’ll see.”
“Dad!”
Angel looked over his
shoulder to see Connor
running towards him.
“Connor,” he exhaled in
relief. Angel turned
back around to see that
Lilah was gone. I
just stopped by for a
visit ... you'll see.
“Dad! You’re alive.”
Angel was taken aback
when the boy hugged him
tightly, but smiled and
patted him on the back
in response. Connor
stepped back and laughed
slightly. “Well, more or
less.”
“What are you doing
here?”
“I had to see if you
made it. I came by the
hotel, thinking you
might be there. I
tracked you here. What
happened?”
“Wolfram & Hart sent an
army of demons to kill
us.”
“Did you kill them all?”
Connor asked, impressed.
“Most of them. They
disappeared when the sun
rose.”
“What about the others.
Wes, Gunn…”
“They’re dead.”
Connor bowed his head.
“Will they be sending
more after you?”
Angel nodded.
“Well, then we’ll have
to get you out of here.
Somewhere safe, where
they can’t find you!” He
grabbed Angel by the arm
and started steering him
out of the alley.
“Whoa.” Angel removed
himself from Connor’s
grasp and stepped back.
“Somewhere safe? I can’t
be safe. If the senior
partners want me dead,
then I’m dead.”
“So that’s it? You just
give up? Why don’t I
stake you right now if
you’re going to be that
way!”
“Son…”
“Don’t do that! You
finally start acting
like a real dad and now
you’re abandoning me?
Again?”
“It’s not like there’s
anything I can do to
stop it.”
“You could at least try.
You said their big game
was to bring about the
apocalypse. Do you
really think they’ll
waste all their efforts
on you now that you’ve
wiped out the
catalysts?”
Angel’s eyebrow shot
upward. “Catalysts?”
“Hey, in college here.
Plus I’ve got eighteen
years of fake memories
in which I’m smart.”
Angel smiled. “You are
smart.”
“And you’re an idiot.”
His smile faded. “Hey!”
“You’re not going to sit
around and die, OK?
You’re going to come
with me and we’re going
to figure something
out.”
“What if they come after
you? You did help me in
the fight against
Hamilton.”
“Then I guess I’ll need
you to come and protect
me, won’t I?”
Angel narrowed his eyes
as he thought it over.
He wasn’t going to win,
Connor was extremely
stubborn. He must’ve
gotten that from his
mother. “OK, let’s go.”
* * * *
“This is really creepy,”
muttered Dawn as she
surveyed Willow’s limp
figure in the seat
behind her. She and
Xander sat in the front
of the rental car with
Giles at the wheel,
while Buffy, Willow,
Andrew and Kennedy sat
scrunched in the back.
“I’m guessing she can’t
hear us when she’s like
this? Or maybe she can,
and she’s thinking,
‘Hey, people. Get out of
my head?’”
Buffy shot her sister an
impatient look that
quickly silenced her.
Meanwhile, Willow was
traveling through the
planes, trying to
pinpoint the best spot
to land in. She’d never
astralled herself into a
moving car before.
Luckily for her, it
wasn’t moving when she
arrived.
The Taurus was parked on
the side of a barren
road, wearing more
scratches and dents on
it than Willow
remembered. The hood was
slightly bent in the
middle, and the engine
was still running when
she approached.
“Illyria.”
“Willow,” she greeted,
moving from behind the
car. “He started making
moaning noises and I
stopped the transport,
but I can get it to stop
rumbling.”
Willow panicked and ran
to the back door on the
passenger’s side. Spike
was still sprawled
across the back seat,
and while he was
extremely still, he was
still breathing. “Thank
god.” She looked to the
dash and saw that the
gas gauge was closing in
on empty. “Great, you’re
almost out of gas.”
“I’m what?” said
Illyria.
“Get in on the other
side,” she instructed.
“I’m gonna drive this
time.”
Willow managed to find a
motel before the car ran
out of gas. It was
called the Star Breeze
Inn, located just west
of the middle of
nowhere.
“OK, the plan,” she said
once she parked in the
parking lot. “You wait
here and take care of
Spike. The rest of us
should be here in about
half an hour, and we’ll
bring money so that we
can get a room. You two
won’t fit in the car
we’ve got and there’s
not a gas station around
for miles, so… what?”
she asked, shriveling
under Illyria’s
inquisitive stare.
“Money? Like this?” She
pulled a wad of twenty
dollar bills from… did
that thing she was
wearing have pockets?
“Where did you get
that?”
“It was in the car.”
“Yeah. Where did
you get the car?”
Illyria’s lips curled
into an impish grin.
Willow shrugged it off.
“Whatever, just stay
here. I’ve got to tell
the others how to get
here.”
Willow muttered an
incantation in a
language Illyria was not
familiar with before
disappearing, as if
sucked through an
invisible wall.
She gasped as she
returned to her body.
“Where are they?” Buffy
asked.
Willow took a moment to
adjust. “The Star Breeze
Inn. Keep going along
this road, you won’t
miss it.”
Giles stepped on the
accelerator and everyone
went silent as they sped
down the highway.
“Will,” said Buffy
quietly as the drove
along. “Did you see
him?”
Willow nodded in reply.
“Was he…?”
“I won’t lie to you,”
she replied. “He’s in
pretty bad shape.”
* * * *
Buffy was the first out
of the car when they
arrived at the motel.
She walked in long
strides until she
reached the lobby, where
she stopped abruptly in
front of the main desk.
“May I help you?”
“A woman rented a room
from you earlier. She
had a man with her.
Tall, bleached hair…”
The old man behind the
desk chuckled. “No need
to continue with the
description, miss. Only
had one tenant check in
today. Room 203.”
Xander and Andrew
arrived in the lobby
just as Buffy was
leaving. They looped
around and followed
behind her as she
climbed the steps
leading to the outdoor
walk of the second floor
rooms. She stopped in
front of 203.
Should she knock? Should
she kick in the door?
Should she stand in
front of the door for
the rest of the night
thinking about how she
should enter? That
wouldn’t do. She knocked
and stood there
impatiently, her heart
pounding in her chest.
The door opened and a
thin woman with blue
hair greeted her.
“What do you want?”
“Fre… Illyria, this is
Buffy,” said Willow,
popping up behind her
friend.
Illyria appraised her
momentarily before
stepping aside. “You’re
the only ones who’ve
come,” she said as
Willow and Xander
entered. Buffy remained
in the doorway.
“Were you expecting
more?” Xander asked,
cautiously moving closer
to the bed where Spike
was lying. He didn’t
look good.
“Two agents have made
attempts on our lives,”
Illyria informed him.
“More will come.”
“Oh my god, Spike,” Dawn
breathed as she and
Kennedy entered the
room. Buffy remained in
the doorway.
“This is so weird,” said
Kennedy softly to
Willow. “So he’s like…
really human, all
pulse-having and stuff?”
Willow nodded. “And we
don’t know how.”
Giles appeared at the
doorway and stopped when
he saw Buffy. She merely
stood there, her lips
pressed together as she
took deep breaths,
unable to take another
step. Giles moved close
behind her. “Are you
alright?” he asked
delicately.
Buffy stepped backward a
fraction of an inch, her
only response.
“Listen, Buffy, I know
this may be difficult
for you, but…”
“No you don’t,” she
replied seriously. “You
can’t have any idea how
this feels.”
Xander sat down in the
ratty armchair by the
window. “What are we
going to do now?”
Everyone turned to
Buffy. This was her
decision; she was the
one who was closest with
Spike. Plus, she was the
leader.
She panicked. Something
inside of her couldn’t
bear the sight of him
lying on the bed,
thrashed and beaten and
bleeding and…
Breathing. His chest was
rising and falling –
slowly, but it was
there. She could see it.
He was still ungodly
pale, but his face… he
looked so…
“Alive,” she panted as
she ran down the steps
that led to the lobby.
She turned around a
corner and found herself
in an alcove with an
empty vending machine
and ice dispenser. She
bent over and placed her
hands on her knees as
she caught her breath.
Spike was alive.
Spike was human.
He was lying on a bed
covered in bandages and
breathing and dying and…
oh god, his face…
Buffy raised her eyes to
the vending machine.
This wasn’t fair.
Nothing was fair.
Despite the fact that
she wasn’t the Slayer
anymore, her life was
still being sucked into
hell.
* * * *
“Giles,” said Willow,
causing him to turn his
attention away from his
fleeing Slayer. “We
should try to take him
to a hospital, right? I
mean, we could get
attacked anywhere. Why
not somewhere where
he’ll stand a better
chance?”
“Or we could stay here
where there are less
people who might get
caught in the crossfire,
and we can actually
sleep?” said Kennedy.
Willow shot her a look.
“I’m not saying we
shouldn’t help Spike,
but c’mon…”
“We’re all tired,” said
Giles. “But we came here
to help Spike, and the
best thing for him now
is to…”
“Oh god!” Xander shot
awake, his hands
gripping the arms of the
chair he had fallen
asleep in. Everyone
crowded around him and
noticed his eye had gone
completely white.
“What is it? What do you
see?” asked Giles.
Dawn sat on the bed next
to Spike while the
others fussed over
Xander. She tuned out
their concerned voices
as she took Spike’s hand
in her own. It was warm.
She dropped it to the
bed. This was wrong.
“You saw Angel?”
“Yeah,” Xander replied.
“Kinda still seeing him,
so… whoa.”
Everyone jumped. “What
is it?” Willow asked.
“Shh, shh! Having a
vision, here!”
Dawn turned and glared
at them. Spike was dying
and they were more
concerned about a stupid
vision. And where was
Buffy, anyway? She
glanced momentarily in
Xander’s direction
before walking out the
door. Once she made it
to the stairs she heard
a loud crash and
screaming. She flew down
the steps and followed
the sound.
“Buffy!” she cried in
alarm, running towards
her sister. “Buffy,
stop!” She grabbed her
by the shoulders and
pulled her away from the
vending machine. “Stop!”
Buffy gasped for breath
as Dawn steadied her on
her feet. “I…” she took
a deep breath. “I killed
the vending machine.”
Dawn glanced over at the
crushed bags of stale
Fritos and covered in
broken glass. She then
looked down at her
sister’s hands, which
were covered in blood.
Her knuckles were raw
and Dawn couldn’t help
but think about the last
time they were like
that.
“Her hands.”
“Yeah, I was going to
fix them. I don’t know
how they got like that.”
“I do. Clawed her way
out of a coffin, that’s
how. Isn’t that right?”
“Yeah, that’s… what I
had to do.”
“Done it myself.”
“Dawn,” said Buffy,
pulling her away from
her flashback. “What is…
is he…?”
Dawn nodded, not knowing
exactly what her sister
was asking or which
answer she wanted, but
felt it best to be a
positive one. She felt
she might’ve been wrong
when Buffy’s shoulders
started shaking as she
cried.
“Buffy,” she said
comfortingly, placing
her sister’s head on her
shoulder.
* * * *
“Come in,” said Connor.
Angel stepped over the
threshold.
“I don’t think it’s a
good idea that I come to
your parents’ house.”
“It’s OK, they’re out of
town.”
“That’s not what I
meant.”
Connor turned to his
father and gave him an
impatient scowl. “You
have a better idea?”
Angel sighed. “No.”
“Good. Then you stay
here. No more
complaining.”
“I wasn’t complaining,”
Angel pouted, managing
to sound dark and
brooding all the same.
“We don’t have any
blood,” Connor informed
him as if they’d just
ran out. “But I think
we’ve got some beer.”
“Beer? You drink?”
Connor puffed up his
chest. “Occasionally.”
“Don’t you have to be 21
to drink?”
Connor smirked, causing
him to bear a striking
resemblance to his
mother. “Legally.”
“What kind?” asked
Angel, following his son
into the kitchen.
“Fosters.”
Angel scowled but smiled
slightly. “Well, at
least you’re parents are
good people.”
* * * *
Dawn followed behind
Buffy as she slowly made
her way towards 203.
Again, she froze in the
doorway. Something
inside told her bad
things would happen if
she took another step.
Xander, Kennedy and
Giles stood by the
window, speaking
intensely and unaware of
Buffy’s arrival. Willow
stood beside Spike’s
bed, looking down at him
uncertainly.
“What’s going on?” Buffy
asked, her eyes not
leaving his prostrate
form.
Everyone turned to face
her. “Buffy,” said
Giles. “Xander’s had
another vision.”
Buffy sighed.
Visions. What was about
former Sunnydale
students and visions?
“What did you see?” she
asked distractedly.
“It was Angel.”
He had her attention.
“What about him. Is he
OK?”
“For now,” Xander
replied. “Buffy, it’s
his son, Connor.”
“What about him?”
“He’s dead,” Andrew
replied. Xander shot him
a look. “I mean, like,
he’s gonna be. That’s
not much better, is it?”
“He’s in trouble,”
Xander corrected,
returning his gaze to
Buffy. “Angel’s with
him, but I don’t think
he’ll be able to save
Connor by himself.”
“Right,” she said,
nodding her head sadly.
“More fighting.” She
dropped her face into
her hands and stood in
the doorway with her
shoulders slumped.
Everyone looked to each
other, wondering what to
do or say.
“Could I…” Buffy asked
through her hands, her
voice muffled. “Could I
have a moment alone with
him?” She pulled her
hands away, wiping away
traces of tears as she
did so.
“Well,” Xander replied
slowly. “We’d have to
find him first.” He
followed Buffy’s gaze.
“Oh, not Angel. Right,
yeah.”
Willow was the last to
leave the room. “Don’t
worry,” she told Buffy
before closing the door
behind her. “We’ll
figure this Angel thing
out. We’ll let you know
if we need you.”
And then they were
alone.